Monday, November 2, 2015
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
Mlok skvrnitý
see him writhing ’gainst the grain,
a fire salamander—poison glands
mean nothing to the roadway, and
little to my dog, sampling the known
and new on nature’s morning walk.
try to force the fauna there to talk,
invested, after all—anyone may own
the pre-tread paths they follow, and
poems, paw-prints, salamander hands
spill clumsily to justify a local pain.
Saturday, October 17, 2015
Castilleja
The paintbrush is ubiquitous:
in the canvas of Cézanne,
leaving little spaces for passers to complete;
in the arias of Bach,
lifting each contrapunct to heavenly heights;
in the lines of Szymborska,
lovingly commiserating the fate of Lot's Wife;
in the dances of our grandkids,
lithely aware,
like lemurs, of complicated things.
Our grandpa painted prairie fire:
for
the campus of conviviality,
mowing meadow
paths to circumnavigate;
for
the melodies of yore,
moving in
and out and into Sunday mass;
for
the poetry of evermore,
mostly
rooted in the great recall of Tevya;
for
the guy wires of grace,
ministerially
in place and Holy Ghost maintained.
Indians adumbrate this flower: colonists accede its Nehemiahic
power.
Monday, October 12, 2015
Missing Autumn
Missing autumn:
Morning skies of paintbrush coral reef,
Norwegian red, gold and ombre crackly leaves,
Brisk air, bird song heights.
He lies hospital abed, barely seeing, not eating.
What if?
What if?
And I hear the response, the
Serif, the
Seraphim,
Who proclaim
God is in this world
This world of seeing and swallowing.
He's got this covered!
by Marilyn Jaeger
Morning skies of paintbrush coral reef,
Norwegian red, gold and ombre crackly leaves,
Brisk air, bird song heights.
He lies hospital abed, barely seeing, not eating.
What if?
What if?
And I hear the response, the
Serif, the
Seraphim,
Who proclaim
God is in this world
This world of seeing and swallowing.
He's got this covered!
by Marilyn Jaeger
Friday, October 2, 2015
Origins, beyond our own beyond...
Loving that a) we still celebrate, b) we have archives to honor and re-delve, c) assignments at school are still pristine and not jaded from politicized 'no child left behind', 'common core', and other such 'backward' design (the origins of THAT concept, it should be said, is not so un-benign...) Here is Emma's 5th-grade poem about 'where she is from':
I am from a roll of film that rolls onto a new story.
I am from a small town with a forest hugging all around.
I am from a family of many different languages,
the heads of strawberry blonde.
I am from the sound of my dog pleading for a walk.
I am from a taste of zmrzlina, preferably stracciatella.
I am the smell of the past, a cottage home well before Božena
(who lived before our babička).
I am from a room where the morning sun tickles me awake.
I am from the books covered in dust that want to be read.
I am from a messy basement below my feet ,which dance
upon the living room rug.
I am from bedtime stories and lullabies from dad and mom
and hours of fun with Joe and Ben.
from all of these, Amen.
Thursday, October 1, 2015
From Marilyn Elstad Jaeger
Greg and I decided that this anonymous poem deserved to be in the Symposium. It was found among our father's effects and there is no indication whether it was written in Plentywood or Denton, Montana or Hallock, Minnesota - a range of years from 1927 to 1952. Obviously his most handsome years, whatever! Except that it was written in a very small, precise script with black ink on 4-hole notebook paper, I reproduce it here verbatim:
A Students Prayer
I do not remember assignments
Of tedius measures and acts;
I only remember your gestures,
Too complex for me are the facts.
I don't comprehend explanations
Too lengthy are they, oh so long
I only remember your voice, dear,
As it goldenly ambles along.
Your movements, your actions, your gestures,
And your sweet winning smile to the last:
Are the factors supreme and important,
That accounts for my liking this class.
Perhaps, George, if you were a teacher
All homely, all wrinkled and fat;
I'd really learn more about History
And wars, an' rail-roads, and that.
Let me suggest something, Darling
(Will you pardon my being so blunt?)
I'm not just trying to be Funny
But I simply can't "sit up in front".
No, I can't sit where I do, Hon,
I'll quickly tell you "The Why",
Too many tongues, too many ears,
Too many thoughts and eyes.
Oh, here's a much better reason
I'd rather not show the pack--
How much I think of Geo. Elstad -
How soon can I move in the Back?
Really, I'll sure pay attention,
P.A.D. -- I'll get it with ease!
So listen just once, sweet"Patoodie"
Move my seat in the Back, woncha, please?
Greg and I decided that this anonymous poem deserved to be in the Symposium. It was found among our father's effects and there is no indication whether it was written in Plentywood or Denton, Montana or Hallock, Minnesota - a range of years from 1927 to 1952. Obviously his most handsome years, whatever! Except that it was written in a very small, precise script with black ink on 4-hole notebook paper, I reproduce it here verbatim:
A Students Prayer
I do not remember assignments
Of tedius measures and acts;
I only remember your gestures,
Too complex for me are the facts.
I don't comprehend explanations
Too lengthy are they, oh so long
I only remember your voice, dear,
As it goldenly ambles along.
Your movements, your actions, your gestures,
And your sweet winning smile to the last:
Are the factors supreme and important,
That accounts for my liking this class.
Perhaps, George, if you were a teacher
All homely, all wrinkled and fat;
I'd really learn more about History
And wars, an' rail-roads, and that.
Let me suggest something, Darling
(Will you pardon my being so blunt?)
I'm not just trying to be Funny
But I simply can't "sit up in front".
No, I can't sit where I do, Hon,
I'll quickly tell you "The Why",
Too many tongues, too many ears,
Too many thoughts and eyes.
Oh, here's a much better reason
I'd rather not show the pack--
How much I think of Geo. Elstad -
How soon can I move in the Back?
Really, I'll sure pay attention,
P.A.D. -- I'll get it with ease!
So listen just once, sweet"Patoodie"
Move my seat in the Back, woncha, please?
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
celebrate!
This poem is dedicated to you, Dick, and all the angels that come in Grace, Word, and Faith. As I watched this speech in Congress, messages began to reveal your road to recovery. "Where two or three are gathered" or millions tuning in, many prayers were happening, and still will.
on Pope Francis’ US speech
Gentle man, you ask as if the world depends on it
to pray for you, as if you need more God support,
and that the homeless child in Bethlehem could be
just as likely you, or one of us, begging unknown
happenstance. Lincoln dreamed a liberated voice
a century on could more than galvanize the mall;
Dorothy Day shone lives entrenched in shadows;
Merton, as a monk, shed solitude for dialogue and
mentored trained myopia to imagine a blind end.
When I was four, I linked my middle name to MLK,
not my grandpa or the priest of Wittenberg, whose
modus to ‘sin boldly’ met with operandi ‘believe
more bold.’ Dad relished my naïveté, reminded me
of lambs to come pointing to the Lamb of
Calvary.
Saturday, September 19, 2015
Nenikekamos!
First of all, thank you Dick and Greg and Mom and Dan for your poems. They keep me going!
I am posting this poem on Josh’s birthday, but let me preface with a little explanation. In the last four months I have been writing a journal, maybe a book, about my road to the marathon, and one of the chapters retells the story of Philippides, the first day-runner who ran to Athens from the battlefields of Marathon, the Fields of Fennel, to report on the soldiers’ success. When he made it to his destination he burst into the room and declared, with his final breath, “Nenikekamos!” or “Joy, we have won!” Josh, this is the spirit you have been teaching us for years. Happy birthday, brother. May you have many more miles to run!
Nenikekamos!:
from you to me
If every day is a gift
it doesn’t seem fair
Whenever there has to be
the days one must battle for
But let each breath that you breathe
fill you with the air
Of revelry and the spirit
of wanting to breathe it more.
Let every day you’re alive
be given to you
And every battle you fight
be an opportunity
To know the giver is good
who sees you through
To celebrate your life
and declare it victory.
Let every breath I breathe
lead me to believe
In heaven’s hold with the spirit
of wanting to breathe it deep.
Let every day I’m alive
be mine to receive
And every battle that I survive
be mine to keep.
Let me know the grace is good
that sets me free
To celebrate the gift
and declare the victory.
I am posting this poem on Josh’s birthday, but let me preface with a little explanation. In the last four months I have been writing a journal, maybe a book, about my road to the marathon, and one of the chapters retells the story of Philippides, the first day-runner who ran to Athens from the battlefields of Marathon, the Fields of Fennel, to report on the soldiers’ success. When he made it to his destination he burst into the room and declared, with his final breath, “Nenikekamos!” or “Joy, we have won!” Josh, this is the spirit you have been teaching us for years. Happy birthday, brother. May you have many more miles to run!
Nenikekamos!:
from you to me
If every day is a gift
it doesn’t seem fair
Whenever there has to be
the days one must battle for
But let each breath that you breathe
fill you with the air
Of revelry and the spirit
of wanting to breathe it more.
Let every day you’re alive
be given to you
And every battle you fight
be an opportunity
To know the giver is good
who sees you through
To celebrate your life
and declare it victory.
Let every breath I breathe
lead me to believe
In heaven’s hold with the spirit
of wanting to breathe it deep.
Let every day I’m alive
be mine to receive
And every battle that I survive
be mine to keep.
Let me know the grace is good
that sets me free
To celebrate the gift
and declare the victory.
Friday, September 18, 2015
An Ode to Mother and Son
by Dick Jaeger
(I, Marilyn, found this in the 2006 scrapbook and thought it appropriate for Symposium. It was written in June, 2006, when we were visiting in Roztoky, Czech Republic. Dick ends with this parenthetical comment: This was done without the guidance if an English major.)
Marilyn said "the tar paper off the side of the shed."
Dan wanted a place to play for the children with the hair of red.
Soon it was walls of mixed wood.
Tear it down we should.
Later it was only a frame;
To not finish would be a shame.
Now a deck Dan would make,
A place to read and eat for goodness sake.
Maybe add a storage shed and play fort
Now we'll have a backyard of a different sort.
What about the cellar for wine?
Katerina thinks that will be fine.
As we prepare to leave,and Dan begins the building fun
Will the project when school starts be done?
Next we come to Praha
We'll look at the classic and say, "Rah! Rah!"
by Dick Jaeger
(I, Marilyn, found this in the 2006 scrapbook and thought it appropriate for Symposium. It was written in June, 2006, when we were visiting in Roztoky, Czech Republic. Dick ends with this parenthetical comment: This was done without the guidance if an English major.)
Marilyn said "the tar paper off the side of the shed."
Dan wanted a place to play for the children with the hair of red.
Soon it was walls of mixed wood.
Tear it down we should.
Later it was only a frame;
To not finish would be a shame.
Now a deck Dan would make,
A place to read and eat for goodness sake.
Maybe add a storage shed and play fort
Now we'll have a backyard of a different sort.
What about the cellar for wine?
Katerina thinks that will be fine.
As we prepare to leave,and Dan begins the building fun
Will the project when school starts be done?
Next we come to Praha
We'll look at the classic and say, "Rah! Rah!"
Saturday, September 5, 2015
Living Rivers, or Sonnet to IBT
Living Rivers, or Sonnet to IBT
by Marilyn Jaeger
Rivers of Europe give joy to Dick and me.
On bikes we've followed seven to the sea.
In France, the Loire, it ends at Bay Biscay.
Then Danube - paths of concrete - most okay!
Called Elbe as we biked through Lutherland
At Prague it's Moldau. Hail the Lamken band!
With barge-and-bike our hearts took on the Rhine
To end in Amsterdam in autumn time.
Paree! The Seine - and pelting tons of rain;
Still, biking trails in woods does trump a train.
Same year Provence, she beckons to the Rhone:
Pont du Gard, Arles, and the Bridge of Avignon.
Clear sun, soft breeze, the Alps off to the left:
The Po to Adriatic Sea - the best!
a Back-to-School Blessing, for everyone
This week I was assigned to a 9th-grade 'Week Without Walls' trip to Harrachov, a ski-resort village not far from our own cottage in the Krkenose Mountains on the Polish border. The trip was fine--no injuries in the rope-climbing, archery, other-things-that-could-happen, and along the way I enjoyed a small conversation concerning the way Czechs label these present months (August=srpen, September=září October=říjen). Those who come to visit us can find out more;)
I thought of calling this post/poem "září", but instead retracted to our Irish heritage and the positive vibes of its most famous blessing. It has leanings to Frost and Eliot and Shakespeare, but deeper claim to the phenomenology that Brno-born philosopher Husserl esteemed, namely: our own (rather awesome) experience.
A Czech Blessing
September in our local language glows,
anticipates the rutting season, knows
the antics of a summer cut and dried,
scans the stack of wood an errant winter tried,
and hums ‘there will be time’ to reinstate.
For pessimists, no failure is in sight;
for boundless minds, the running air is right
and gateways of fresh learning stay ajar.
We do not cringe to catch a shooting star,
but rather chase the chance to calculate.
Admittedly, all autumns come too fast,
coupling the innocence and bombast
of adolescent dreams. September brings
a stage to strut and fret, a bell that rings
good tidings to the frames by which we learn.
In ways I’m entering Grade Forty-Three
—such graduations have eluded me—
and no voice mocks why
chop that wood again?
Maybe fatherhood defends, smiling when
we let September glow, perchance to burn.
Sunday, August 30, 2015
As September strides in...
We're missing you and wish our collective school year well, from Glenbard, Lake Forest, Champagne, Pecatonica, as well as here in Prague.
For Emma, Katerina and I, we're almost two weeks in and flush with assignments and such. For the boys, school starts Tuesday at Jan Kepler Gymnasium and Petrin Sever Art School. We had a great final weekend with them and Babicka in Krkenose--a wonderful cap to an unforgettable summer.
I may be heading to Manila for a hastily announced workshop, so that further busies things for me. Classes have begun well, so that helps justify the long trip.
Here's a poem in the glow of the number of runners (add Emma) we have in our family:
For Emma, Katerina and I, we're almost two weeks in and flush with assignments and such. For the boys, school starts Tuesday at Jan Kepler Gymnasium and Petrin Sever Art School. We had a great final weekend with them and Babicka in Krkenose--a wonderful cap to an unforgettable summer.
I may be heading to Manila for a hastily announced workshop, so that further busies things for me. Classes have begun well, so that helps justify the long trip.
Here's a poem in the glow of the number of runners (add Emma) we have in our family:
August in Beijing
Thank God the Lightning Bolt believes in you,
apparent less in ritualistic pointing to the sky
and more in popping up and to that Segway guy
who deigned to mow him down without a clue.
Thank Confucius guy on Segway isn’t going to die
of scandal, maybe, or of shame that through
the rolling post-haste seconds subject to review
exposes multi-tasking hubris and ineptitude. I
saw Usain had taken off his spikes and thought
‘it must be liberating to shed those very tools
that got me here’, silencing the likely din of fools
who’d just assume his wins were steroid-bought.
Thank Ras Tafari reason’s not outpaced by rules
when any tiger freely strides for what it ought;
our kids dream infinitely fast, and now they’ve got
Jamaican heat to challenge any course that cools.
Tuesday, August 18, 2015
Coda
The room waited,
bated
breath,
for the verdict
to come
down. Jem was certain that we’d won it;
Reverend
Sykes was none-
too-trumpish in tying ‘we’ to ‘won’.
Instead, he
hearkened to experience
and maybe tacitly to God,
maker of
Tom Robinson and Helen,
Jean Louise, Mayella,
Dolphus
Raymond,
Cal and Atticus—every soul in sight;
and maybe even Bob, good
gawd!,
and certainly, using Jem’s
assurance,
the
ghost in every
room:
{palpable as heartbeats on a pillow—Boo}
Then the jury woke Judge Taylor
Scout,
and all who slumber through
an
end-of-summer read.
Tom assumes the
walking dead,
the
truer Boo that folks could say
they somewhat knew,
even in the pages now unglued.
I’m with Jem in
hoping,
Sykes for
standing up for
something, even little Dill as
stowaway;
I’m amply
thrown apart each time
I entertain a
mockingbird {fluting in my heart}
Sunday, August 16, 2015
It's raining, as I write
In my busy reading this week (code for: I can't find the article source), recent droughts in Russia may have been a contributing factor in the run-up of Arab Spring. Russia, more than EU countries, supplied grain to North Africa at reasonable prices, but when Russia's supply dwindled, they stopped exporting and sold grain to themselves; average Africans were depleted of free-market access to bread and dysfunctional government rations, greasing the democratic (since dashed) hopes of many in the region to self-actualize and rely less on the policies of hegemonic 'providers'.
Some personal associations are close at hand: most recently, 'Feed My Starving Children' was a definite highlight of our trip to America this summer; my Model United Nations trip to Cairo, October 2010 happened naively just a couple months before 'Arab Spring' activism; a controversial symposium at Concordia College, c. 1987, had Garret Harding argue 'Lifeboat Ethics' and the rationale to let the sinking world sink (as Western well-intended motives only add weight to the individual and collective rafts of self-survival).
Returning to Prague's Vaclav Havel airport is always a joy, especially in the glow of good trips: God has blessed us with many good homes. I was astonished, however, with the brown landscape. A long-term colleague here remarked that 'our Garden of Eden is no longer', inviting evangelical opportunities! In context, those assuredly happen!
Below is a poem I'm still scraping out. It's naturally about global warming/climate change but not in any way reacting to political discussions that frankly defy educational respect. Pope Francis will speak to Congress next month and invariably address our negligent stewardship to the neighbors we least associate with and the earth we exploit. In ways, he is ahead of his times, but lagging behind the times we could/should figure out for ourselves, with the balance of the Bible and common sense (devoid of self-interested political pragmatism). In the spirit of a symposium--including disparaging voices like Garret Harding--we have to do better than how we're doing, pleasant people that we are.
Some personal associations are close at hand: most recently, 'Feed My Starving Children' was a definite highlight of our trip to America this summer; my Model United Nations trip to Cairo, October 2010 happened naively just a couple months before 'Arab Spring' activism; a controversial symposium at Concordia College, c. 1987, had Garret Harding argue 'Lifeboat Ethics' and the rationale to let the sinking world sink (as Western well-intended motives only add weight to the individual and collective rafts of self-survival).
Returning to Prague's Vaclav Havel airport is always a joy, especially in the glow of good trips: God has blessed us with many good homes. I was astonished, however, with the brown landscape. A long-term colleague here remarked that 'our Garden of Eden is no longer', inviting evangelical opportunities! In context, those assuredly happen!
Below is a poem I'm still scraping out. It's naturally about global warming/climate change but not in any way reacting to political discussions that frankly defy educational respect. Pope Francis will speak to Congress next month and invariably address our negligent stewardship to the neighbors we least associate with and the earth we exploit. In ways, he is ahead of his times, but lagging behind the times we could/should figure out for ourselves, with the balance of the Bible and common sense (devoid of self-interested political pragmatism). In the spirit of a symposium--including disparaging voices like Garret Harding--we have to do better than how we're doing, pleasant people that we are.
Apollo, let us run
The sun is reason, qua-Apollo,
as myths go,
and while I worship nothing of his brother,
I run a hellcat from this ball of fire and dive
(in not-so-feline fashion) into a sea of other:
a spangling envelope of simulated shade,
a lake or stream that flows my way, or, times
being what they are, into a pool man-made,
anything in sight to ward off what we know:
we’re burning up. Agent Orange is too select
a nightmare to assign as déjà
vu, yet now we
lie exposed—the lab betrays our intellect,
as those who’ve been at either business-end
of hellfire can attest: what is heard or seen
must now be felt, faint hopes to comprehend.
Of all phenomena (here let definition grow:
Husserl and others render what exists, what
comes as an event, what we
are in that mix)
I love a gentle sun-shower: rain at root, if
not exempt from quick evaporating force. One
falls against the other’s lift and full predicts
our lean relief, yet still will make Apollo run.
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
the love of summer
You know me well enough to project love for autumn (Pushkin, cross-country, All-Saints' Day, school stretching out of its cocoon). Summer gives reunions, resplendent waters to swim and canoe, heat and due relief, sing-alongs and chances to feed my starving children. This was a summer to love and appreciate how our children are growing up in grace. I'm grateful beyond recount. Below is a quick sonnet--as ever, any revision suggestions or (better yet) matching efforts would be welcome.
Teleology
Teleology
Young Rockers, try to begin ‘you better
you better, you bet’ or glimmer through ‘hope-
lessly in love with you’, primally scream
The Immigrant Song or groove with a pict
‘so this aint the end, I saw you again
today—I had to turn my heart away.’
Reset your waking dreams with ad-hoc drive
and launch a wily search for mother lode;
it’s out there in the instinct you behold,
and if you’re Yorke or Schulz or Waits (any
TDH), that’s icing on the sponge cake.
Worry not about mistakes, the ends do
justify the Jack White chords you mean to
play. Because you’re young, be dolphins all day.
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