I PRAISE I-PAD

It’s time to tell you what it means to us

Dick’s I-Pad is often at our table

Rude distraction?  Maybe at times

But this morning redeemed rudeness.

I told husband of a book I had just

Finished (on Kindle.  Are we wired or what?)

Name, Lady of Milkweed Manor,

Main character, Charlotte Lamb,

A pastor’s daughter in early-nineteenth-century

 Kent.  Disgraced her family.

Pregnant.  Much of setting was a

Lying-in hospital in London, with

Milkweed messily in the garden.

Much of the story was of wet nurses

Common at that time, and Charlotte

Became one, a wet nurse.

But oh, the interweaving of milkweed

And milk, and foundlings, and

Compassionate nursing.

Plus the therapeutic medicinal values

Of milkweed.

Then!  Dick said, “During World War II

We went out into the fields during

School, and picked milkweed

‘For the war effort’.”

“What was that about, anyway?”

So he looked it up on his I-pad.

Sure enough, a picture of

School children

Pointing proudly at sacks hanging

Over their heads,

Filled with milkweed floss

That would go to munitions plants

And be used for life preservers and vests

In the place of kapok.

Thank you, I-pad, for starting our day

Fulfilled with new knowledge!

Marilyn Jaeger

March 19 2014

March 19.  I did not choose this date,
but today has some significance to me,
because it was 25 year ago today

that my father died.  And maybe
I shouldn’t dwell on this, but
He was 51, the same age I am today.

And he died of a heart attack, which
apparently runs in the family:
all six of my dad’s brothers and sisters

have had heart conditions since then,
So here I am in the middle of Lent,
focusing on my mortality.

As we are supposed to do, I guess,
but what I really want to talk about
is the rest of the story.


March 19, 1989 was Palm Sunday. Lent
came early that year, and it was (imagine!)
a beautiful beginning-of-spring day.

The grass was turning green.  The sky was blue.
And I was going to get out and enjoy the day.
But then the phone rang, and it changed everything.

My thoughts ran all over the place: Immediately,
I missed my dad.  But then I remembered
that I hadn’t talked to him in over a month.

I thought about how 26 was way too young
to be making funeral arrangements.  And I thought
about the 600 mile drive I had in front of me.

But that call had come just as I was about to go
to church that morning, and something compelled me
to keep on going.  And it was a good thing.


Because for all of my scattered thoughts, I needed
to hear and sing those processional hymns,
and even though there were tears in my eyes,

it was good to be part of a crowd raising their
palm fronds and turning their eyes to Jesus
and maybe it was going to be a tough week ahead,

but it was nice to be reminded that Easter was coming.
And the reminders kept coming, all week long.
Everyone was so warm and close that week,

friends, family but also members of my dad’s church,
people I didn’t even know, and they were smiling,
even laughing, as they took time to remember Joe Vold,

and when we got to the funeral, there was even
a sense of celebration, because my dad knew
where he was going, and he wanted us to know it, too.


By Friday, I was back home in Chicago,
and Friday night I found myself back in church.
This time it was the Good Friday service:

the Tennebrae service, where they shroud the cross
and dim the lights and everyone slowly filters
out of the church, quietly, somberly,

and where the name of the day practically begs
the question: what’s so good about it?
But we all know the answer, don’t we?

And that’s the rest of the story.
You know, I might just live another 51 years,
and I have some encouragement in that:

of my dad’s six brothers and sisters,
five of them are still going strong,
and they’re all getting well into their eighties now.


But more importantly, I’m encouraged
by the daily reminders all around me,
encouragements from my aunts and uncles

and many of you, too, reminding me daily
that regardless of where we are in life,
or how tough the Lenten journey may seem

it is good to know where we are going.

Meerkats in my View

Little zoo northwest of Prague reminds me

of the least of these: the lonesome coda

at the end of John: “take care of my sheep.”

There were llamas at this zoo, and loads of

lemurs open-eyed; meerkats all upright,

sniffing the careless karakals nearby.

I dreamt of Dad again the other night,

our twice-a-year reunion since he died,

and what he said this time I will record:

‘Glory, hallelujah,’ he hugged me close,

‘And one more time tomorrow.’  All I’ve stored

in twenty-five years is a staunch repose

to ‘take care of my sheep.’ Back then, Bejou,

the pastor stole my fire and eulogy

on John 12:24. I thought of you,

Dad, on the Saturday night you finally

put this daunting question on me: “Simon

son of John, do you truly love me more

than these?” You asked not for yourself, your own

life leaving as we spake, but not before

we count the least of these: “You know all things;

you know I love you.” “Feed my sheep.” It hurt

to hear and say. And yet that gospel rings

harmonious today. The little yurt

in the zoo northwest of Prague holds more than

mere lemurs. They scamper fantasies of

jungle limbs that cannot be, perhaps to plan

a modest family. Whatever love

disseminates is what the species may

believe to be their tenderhook, their creed.

“Simon son of John,” I echoed that day,

“do you truly”—gulping any air I need—

“love me” (don’t say) “more than these?” I don’t

know what I’m doing, meerkats in my view,

the good folks of Bejou, like me, won’t

begrudge such scrutiny…. Jesus, will you?

chaos you embrace

Among one hundred million billboards

in Mumbai, a teenage girl wore two

sentences—breast to belly—that might

be missed in passing (so read fast):

          TODAY I’M

          IN CHARGE.

          MY CHOICE

          IS TO MAKE

          YOU HAPPY.

Tomorrow I surmised her t-shirt choice

to be EMBRACE YOUR CHAOS –“’cuz

that is all anyone not in charge can do.”

At least I had her reason in my head.

Traffic everywhere in Mumbai is sheer:

on foot and bikes with hand cranks,

with trucks that bid ‘HORN OK PLEASE’

as auto rickshaws beep and buzz by

complying to a freakish common sense,

sliding in and out and perpendicular,

and the motorcycles mostly helmetless,

never on the side-saddle kids behind.

They stream by endless games of cricket

in alleyways and any semi-open space;

girls play other games: blind man’s buff,

musical chairs, plying who’s in charge.

More than one dream weaver in the slum

is happy, past the fun and games. What

misery exists is also left and right, for life

extorts an everything and nothing to do.

At Sanjay Gandhi sanctuary, macaques

stuff their jowls with slow-dissolving pits

and sift the garbage for further harvest.

Their blackface kin, the langur, commands

the top of trees with no such agrarian pull.

Heaven may gather its plan and provide

in the way Buddhist monks here carved out

caves, joining in the crepuscular prayer.

          TODAY I’M

          CASTING U

          IN CHARGE.

          UR CHOICE

          MAY MAKE

…the shirt runs out of room. The fragment

is on you to fill out like a form, to steer

through on your journey home, your own

slum if you will, the chaos you embrace.