Sunday, August 28, 2016

Lost Menagerie

This is the 461st post on Stillwater Symposia, a running start to someday tag-team with Garrison Keillor and his Writer's Almanac. Songs and notes and photographs, memoirs, memes, momentos, all are welcome as each week unfolds.

Regarding weeks, I was going to wait about ten more to post my 200th on Lost Menagerie, especially as I had the 'title track' in mind. Alas, at 190, I did not want to wait. It's a round number, anyway:

When someone set the circus free, sometime
2 a.m. to daybreak, when officers convened,
one asked another, “what’s the priority?
you got tigers on the loose, dancing bears,
some drunken clowns” – “every maringotka
opened up?” – “Pandora’s box, it seems,
and then you got the guy who did it” – “the
clowns, quite obviously” – “no, that’s too clean;
it’s more likely you and me” – “hey, I have
no interest in setting creatures free” – “your
kids will fly the coop someday” – “that’s them,
not me” – “let’s get back to this priority.”

All was not lost, reasonably: the seal could
hardly find a stream and llamas broke
into the hay bales, hook and crook, while
elephants and Bactrians would soon enough
recall how good it was to eat, how challenging
to chase the fodder that fueled a need to
more-than-entertain the master’s old routine;
absconding takes a toll, you know, and maps
beyond the published or the apps would
likely lead to more captivity. Instead, one had
to conjure instinct, invent a piecemeal plan,
look somewhat after others, if differently.

Fingerprints were spot-checked, symbolic
stones upturned, the master fretting
naturally, the treasurer acting as concerned,
the acrobats chain smoking, the vendors
sleeping in, no one’s seen the strongman—
gone with trainers chasing down the beasts?
or hadn’t he stomped out last night when
jaded by the queen, grooming all her horses
past his chance to preen? Or any in the crowd
could have flipped out just the same: the show
intoxicates, the cotton candy sours, piped in
promises of lighter life remain illusory.

By 9 some stock was claimed, by noon the
culprit found: a veteran from the Iraq war
in which the zoo was bombed, and duty
called to improvise the orders of that day.
“He said as much?” – “she did, in fact, and after
her Miranda rights” – “she’ll spend the night
in jail” – “just like the pens she jimmied with,
which now make way to further towns” – “you
think they’ll just move on?” – “faster than
a fire brigade, you’ve surely heard them say:
the show must” – “operate with malcontents”
– “as well as legends of a lost menagerie.”

Friday, August 26, 2016

1,000 Words, Pt 1

Every Thought...

Week 35: Water

This was a whimsical experiment, taking up the pen and hoping to be inspired.  I know well that life, or any moment of it, cannot reduce to words, but I would still try to capture the beauty of it.


08/26:

  TWL, Part IV: Translations

  311.5     IV. Death by Water

ACT FOUR: This is the water section, the fourth of five sections of The Waste Land that adopt the themes of the classical elements of earth, air, fire, water and wind (see note 0.5). Eliot foreshadowed the title and theme of this section pages earlier when Madame Sosostris generally warned her patron to “Fear death by water” (line 55). Like the previous sections, this shorter section is full of allusions, but the primary source of the text is now Eliot’s own voice, loosely translated from a poem he first wrote in French.  See notes 312-321.

“YOU” THE READER are in this poem.  One might argue that the poet could just as easily have been talking to himself (see line 17) or addressing a particular audience (see the Son of Man at lines 20-30 or the “hypocrite lecteur” at 69-76), or setting up a conversation between characters (see the hyacinth girl and her companion at lines 35-42; Madame Sosostris and her patron at lines 43-59; or the nervous companion at lines 113-126) or playing a single character’s part (see Hieronymo at line 432).

But the passage in this fourth part seems to be spoken through a crack in the fourth wall, directed more to the “you” of the moment: you, whether transient audience or fellow pilgrim, Gentile or Jew (line 319), who would seek answers through the figurative reading of the cards and the various surrounding elements.  At line 320 it is you who turns the wheel of the seasons, and also you who would turn with the poet towards the wind, that fifth classical element about to be introduced in Part V.

Maybe, Gentile or Jew, it has been you in the poem all along, at every instance.

DECONSTRUCTION comes first, however. Before moving windward, consider at lines 312-321 what the water has done, and compare this to how each of the classical elements is deconstructed in turn, beginning at the end of Part I, when the reader is asked to consider what happens to a body planted in the earth (see lines 69-76); then near the end of Part II, when the poet asks, in response to the “you” of lines 113-126, what “we” can ever do in the empty air (see lines 131-138); and finally at the end of Part III, amidst the consumption of fire, when you are turned through the poet’s prodding (see note 308) to the Sermon on the Mount, addressed very much to “you.” See Matthew 6:23 (note 0.5):

  “If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!”

TRANSLATIONS: For a final take on the identity of “you,” consider the multiple languages used throughout Eliot’s poem and notes, with at least 27 passages that Eliot deliberately left untranslated, including Greek (line 0.3), Italian (lines 0.4 and 428 and notes 64, 293 and 428), German (lines 12, 31-34 and 42 and note 367), French (lines 76 and 202 and note 60), Nymphic (lines 77-278, 290-291 and 306), Birdsong (lines 103, 203-206, 358 and 393), Old Occitan (line 428 and note 428), Latin (line 429 and notes 92 and 218), Old English (line 432) and Sanskrit (433-434; Sanskrit also appears with translation at lines 402, 412 and 419 and note 434).  This use of many voices, like the children’s voices singing in the dome (see line 202 ad note 202), may suggest an appeal to a universal audience, with you being all who have ears (see Matthew 11:14 (note 0.5): “He that hath ears to hear, let him hear.”).  Yet it is in this Part IV that Eliot departs from this aloofness by translating Dans Le Restaurant, one of his own earlier poems (see note 321) that had previously been published only in French.  He is still addressing a universal audience by appealing ecumenically to Gentile or Jew (line 319), but even in doing this he is addressing a singular reader: you, having not only ears but a part in the action (line 320) and striking similarities to the victim (line 321).


08/27:

  Poetry Discovered On A Rainy Day

  Poetry is trying to find
  a thousand words without a camera,
 
  to compose an image, more, to capture
  the message of a chance alignment
 
  will serve you better than your cell phone’s
  snapshot “can you hear me now?”
 
  Poetry is taking the time,
  waiting for lighting, adjusting the speed
 
  and exposure.  I, on a rainy day,
  once found the perfect picture
 
  when sunshine filtered through rolling gray
  to give the raindrops their color.  Now
 
  and then looking for reason
  you discover the art of a thousand words.


08/28:
  
  1. Snapshot

  ...I, on a rainy day, once found the perfect picture
  when sunshine filtered through rolling gray
  to give raindrops their color.  Now

  cameras are useless brushes, should some sudden need occur
  , forever missing pixels, looking past contrast, losing focus;
  paint (oil, acrylic, maybe watercolor?) too cannot capture our
  climate’s spectral shades, frameless moments, shifting facts;
  language isn’t any better, not very, but if you’ll pardon
  contractions and count them anyhow (allow poetic cheats,
  permit imperfections), my pen is drawn.  I’m ready.  I’ll try.


08/29:
  
  2. Snapchat

  (...trying to find a thousand words without a camera...)

  subtitle: 1,000 imperfect words; thesis: an impossible sudoku.
  opening paragraph, initial sentencing: possessive noun,
  adjectives, subjective action verb, adverbs, et cetera...  already
  skeptical critics would criticize, deconstruct, misconstrue &
  decompose what I’ve proposed / begun composing:
  meanwhile, earth’s atmosphere weeps / continues weeping;
  another imitative artist cries, his ink unerasably flowing.


08/30:
  
  3. Twitter

  (...to compose an image, more, to capture...)
   
  precipitation’s plain dull pallette shivers endlessly, above
  below around: today we wait, anticipating better fronts, left
  listening for conclusive punctuation, getting only ellipses,
  gradual premonitions hinting what’s coming: distant booms
  first telegraphed in whiplashed flashes; later followed by
  smells, electricity’s ominous odor, dampened dust, stirred up
  dirt, awakened earth; finally touch, feel: rainfall taking over.
 

08/31:

  4. Messaging

  (...the message of a chance alignment...)

  rain: cold colorless falling wet hard relentless dominating,
  weather offputting, setting aside coatless hatless daylight
  hours, nature’s nowcast, never mind forecast, upsetting social
  structures, cancelling performances played, attended,
  offering lightning’s unsubscribed sizzle instead, deceptively
  dry; thunder, decidedly loud exclamations without explana-
  tion; patter, splatter, drizzle, less music than noise then pour.


09/01:
  
  Moleskin 4.7: New World


  Meanwhile, for all the resistance to change this old man was showing, my own world was like Richard Nixon: full of it, with a banner headline of unasked for, unexpected news. Not only the house and the dad, but we were dropped into a new neighborhood with none of my old friends. I had to give up the paper route job, and in the fall I would be going to a new school —a bigger junior high school, no less. We started going to a new church, a Baptist church, where my mom was now working as an organist and where my step-dad was the treasurer. And the change kept a-coming: I was given chores: mowing the lawn, taking out the garbage; and a behavior code: being told to speak more courteously to adults, or better, not to speak at all. At ages eight and five my malleable, eager to please brothers seemed impervious to all this, but they had not had more than incidental friendships and didn’t have to quit a job and were still in the first half of elementary school. But I was almost a teenager, brimming with angst and anger, and I did not want all this change.

Sunday, August 21, 2016

Lessons from a Paper Route



An old guy on the cross-town train sat next to me,
and after axle clacks of nothingness, pulled some
papers, folded in fours, from a pouch on the harness
of his German Shepherd, lying guard like most of us.

Then drumming his pen and making small marks,
mouthing reminders of clauses someone had typed,
he added two lines by hand and asked me to witness
that which he signed and dated by doing the same.

‘What is it?’ I knew without asking, yet leaned in to
hear what he’d call his last will. ‘My take on today
as it bears on tomorrow,’ and with that, he trundled
away, granting some privacy for how I’d comply.

‘Listen,’ I whispered without more to say, silently
seeking clues on the sheets—his loose-fitting suit,
his choice of seat if he planned to blow up the train—
‘I hesitate messing with fate,’ and signed anyway.

‘Thank you,’ he smiled, and blew on my autograph
before filing it safe with the dog. ‘Why put it there?’
‘His tag has my name.’ ‘Let’s say he dies first, do you
have the same?’ ‘I’ve never thought of it that way.’

We each raised our eyes to the blur of the station
that could finish this game, but mine was the next,
so at least I could gather more of his means to take
mortal stock and revise it this way. ‘Are you afraid?’

‘Not anymore’, patting the back of his Fido or Rex.
‘Are you?’ ‘Not on your life. I’ve clearly expressed
I don’t want—’ ‘—a mess?’ ‘Or something like that. I
rather want other things read.’ He giggled and said,

‘Life is a tale told by an idiot,’ ‘yes, yes, full of sound
and fury,’ ‘signifying a reason we cite it.’ ‘Meaning?’
‘You hardly know what’s composed in celestial news.’
‘Should I?’ ‘Maybe you were in it.’ ‘I’m there today.’

‘Your witness is, at least. Tomorrow, who’s to say?’
‘That idiot, all due respect: the teller of a hundred
thousand days which we inherit, live and inseminate,
passing in the aisles of countless trains.’ I stopped

for fear of arrogance, as much to hear the old guy
have the final say: ‘See you on the by-and-by. What
you’ve done today will resonate, regardless how I die,
’cuz you read in me a chance to not appear crazy.’

Friday, August 19, 2016

Everything Is Burning

Every Thought...

Week 34: The Fire Sermon

Now and then I feel compelled to rewrite an established text, as here with The Fire Sermon: a translation, though I do not know the language; a restatement, yet I want to make it my own.


08/19:

  TWL, Lines 307-311: Augustine, Buddha and Jesus

  307     To Carthage then I came
  308     Burning   burning   burning   burning

  309     O Lord Thou pluckest me out
  310     O Lord Thou pluckest

  311     burning

307. CARTHAGE, literally “new city,” second home of Queen Dido and the site of her tragic affair with Aeneus (see Virgil, Aeneid (note 92), was for St. Augustine a new world.  See Augustine, Confessions (398 AD) 3.1.1, as cited by Eliot (translation not identified).

Eliot: “V. St. Augustine’s Confessions: ‘to Carthage then I came, where a cauldron of unholy loves sang all about mine ears.’”

See also Confessions 10.16.25 (tr. E. B. Pusey, 1838):

  “For thus do I remember Carthage, thus all places where I have been, thus men's faces whom I have seen, and things reported by the other senses; thus the health or sickness of the body.”

Augustine, born in Thagaste, North Africa, in what is now Algeria, first moved to Carthage, now in neighboring Tunisia, for schooling at the age of 16.  From the start he struggled between  his faith and the hedonistic lifestyle of the “subverters” he saw all around him.  See Confessions 3.3.6.  See also Confessions 8.7.17:

  “But I wretched, most wretched, in the very commencement of my early youth, had begged chastity of Thee, and said, ‘Give me chastity and continency, only not yet.’  For I feared lest Thou shouldest hear me soon, and soon cure me of the disease of concupiscence, which I wished to have satisfied, rather than extinguished.”

At the age of 19, Augustine returned to Thagaste to teach, and while there he became greatly disturbed at the death of a close friend (compare Eliot’s loss of his friend Jean Verdenal, note 42), causing him to return to Carthage two years later.

Augustine converted to Christianity relatively late in life, at the age of 34, after being especially moved by a random passage from Romans 13:13-14 (see Confessions 8.12.29):

  “Not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying, but put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh to fulfill the lusts thereof.”

See also Confessions 10.6.8-9, and compare this to Eliot’s tour of the classical elements (notes 0.5, 26):

  “This is it which I love when I love my God.  And what is this?  I asked the earth, and it answered me, ‘I am not He’; and whatsoever are in it confessed the same. I asked the sea and the deeps, and the living creeping things, and they answered, ‘We are not thy God, seek above us.’ I asked the moving air; and the whole air with his inhabitants answered, ‘Anaximenes was deceived, I am not God.’ I asked the heavens, sun, moon, stars, ‘Nor (say they) are we the God whom thou seekest.’ And I replied unto all the things which encompass the door of my flesh: ‘Ye have told me of my God, that ye are not He; tell me something of Him.’ And they cried out with a loud voice, ‘He made us.’”

Finally, see Confessions 10.27.38:

  “Too late loved I Thee, O Thou Beauty of ancient days, yet ever new! too late I loved Thee! And behold, Thou wert within, and I abroad, and there I searched for Thee; deformed I, plunging amid those fair forms which Thou hadst made. Thou wert with me, but I was not with Thee. Things held me far from Thee, which, unless they were in Thee, were not at all. Thou calledst, and shoutedst, and burstest my deafness. Thou flashedst, shonest, and scatteredst my blindness. Thou breathedst odours, and I drew in breath and panted for Thee. I tasted, and hunger and thirst. Thou touchedst me, and I burned for Thy peace.”

308. BURNING: Following the image of Augustine’s cauldron (note 307), see Shakespeare, Macbeth 4.1.10-11 for the witches’ chorus:

  “Double, Double toil and trouble:
  Fire, burn; and cauldron, bubble.”

See also the witches call of “‘Tis time, tis time,” at note 141.

For another reference to burning, see Joyce, Ulysses (note 111).

THE FIRE SERMON: Eliot: “The complete text of the Buddha's Fire Sermon, (which corresponds in importance to the Sermon on the Mount) from which these words are taken, will be found translated in the late Henry Clarke Warren's Buddhism in Translation (Harvard Oriental Series). Mr. Warren was one of the great pioneers of Buddhist studies in the Occident.”
The Fire Sermon is a central Buddhist text. See Siddhartha Gautama Buddha, Adittapariyaya Sutta, Samyutta Nikaya 35.28 (483 BCE, tr. Warren, 1896)):

  “The eye, O priests, is on fire; forms are on fire; eye-consciousness is on fire; impressions received by the eye are on fire; and whatever sensation, pleasant, unpleasant, or indifferent,  originates in dependence on impressions received by the eye, that also is on fire. And with what are these on fire? With the fire of passions, say I, with the fire of hatred, with the fire of infatuation, with birth, old age, death, sorrow, lamentation, misery, grief, and despair are they on fire.

  ...Perceiving this, O priests, the learned and noble disciple conceives an aversion for the eye, conceives an aversion for forms, an aversion for eye-consciousness, an aversion for the impressions received by the eye; and whatever sensation, pleasant, unpleasant, or indifferent, originates in dependence on impressions received by the eye.

  ...And in conceiving this aversion, he becomes divested of passion, and by the absence of passion he becomes free, and when he is free he becomes aware that he is free; and he knows that rebirth is exhausted, that he has lived the holy life, that he has done what it behooved him to do, and that he is no more for this world.”

THE EYE, throughout this poem, is veiled or averted: it fails (line 39), is forbidden (line 54), fixes on the feet (line 65), hides behind wings (line 81), presses lidless (line 138), weeps (line 182), turns upward from the desk (line 216) and is covered, then opened (lines 360-363).  See also note 219 for the spectrum of perceptiveness in this poem.

311. PLUCKED OUT: Eliot: “From St. Augustine's Confessions again. The collocation of these two representatives of eastern and western asceticism, as the culmination of this part of the poem, is not an accident.”

See Confessions (note 307) 10.34.53:

  “And I, though I speak and see this, entangle my steps with these outward beauties; but Thou pluckest me out, O Lord, Thou pluckest me out; because Thy loving-kindness is before my eyes. For I am taken miserably, and Thou pluckest me out mercifully;  sometimes not perceiving it, when I had but lightly lighted upon them; otherwhiles with pain, because I had stuck fast in them.”

Augustine’s reference to being plucked out mercifully comes from Psalm 25:15:

  “Mine eyes are ever toward the Lord; for he shall pluck my feet out of the net.”

But for a different kind of plucking, see Matthew 5:29:

  “And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.”

THE SERMON ON THE MOUNT, the source for this merciless plucking, turns everything around.  At Eliot’s own prompting, compare the ascetic representations (note 309) of Buddha’s Fire Sermon and St. Augustine’s Confessions with the  “corresponding importance “ (note 308) of Jesus’s Sermon on the Mount, his most extensively preserved public speech delivered at the beginning of his ministry, not long after he had been tested in the wilderness.  The Sermon includes many well known lessons, such as the Beatitudes, the Lord’s Prayer and the salt and light metaphors; see Matthew 5: 13, 14:
 
  “Ye are the salt of the earth... Ye are the light of the world”

...but also some harsh morality checks.  Following the above eye plucking passage, which spoke the one whose eye wanders lustfully towards adultery, consider this extension to the “eye” passage on how to react to the evil of others, at Matthew 5: 38-39:

  “Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth: But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.”  There is also a stern turn of both the eye and the light metaphors at Matthew 6: 22-23:

  “The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness.  If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!”

Compare Beaumont and Fletcher, Philaster (note 28):

  “Preach to birds and beasts
  What woman is, and help to save them from you;
  How heaven is in your eyes, but in your hearts
  More hell than hell has
  ...How all the good you have is but a shadow,
  I' the morning with you, and at night behind you
  Past and forgotten.”
 
This refers back to lines 27-29: “...Your shadow at morning striding behind you / Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you.”

See also line 41: “looking into the heart of light, the silence.”

The Sermon on the Mount concludes at Matthew 7: 26-27:

  “And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.”


08/20:

  The Fire Sermon

  by Siddhartha Gautama Buddha (my own translation)

  Everything is burning, holy ones.
  And what is everything?
  The eye, holy ones, is on fire;
  the forms that pass it by are on fire;
  the eye’s own awareness is on fire;
  the impressions it receives are on fire,
  and every sensation spawned
  by the need for those impressions:
  all pleasure, pain and numbness is on fire.

  And how does the fire burn?
  With the fires of passion:
  passion burns the eye, holy ones,
  with fires of hate and lust
  and fires of delusion,
  fires of birth and age, death and sorrow,
  fires of crying and suffering,
  grieving and despairing:
  the eye with all its passions is on fire.

  And not only the eye, holy ones,
  but the ear is on fire and all that can be heard
  is burning;
  the nose is on fire and all that can be smelled
  is burning;
  the tongue is on fire and all that can be tasted
  is burning;
  the body is on fire and all that can be touched
  is burning.  And sensing this, holy ones,
  the wise and honorable disciple
  learns to turn away:
  he turns away from the eye
  turns away from the forms,
  turns away from awareness,
  from impressions
  and from every sensation spawned
  by the need for those impressions,
  turns away from all that is
  pleasant, painful or numb;

  he learns to turn away
  from the ear and from what it hears,
  from the nose and from what it smells,
  from the tongue and from what it tastes,
  from the body and from all that it can touch;

  he learns to turn away from the mind
  and from ideas,
  from the mind’s awareness,
  from impressions
  and from the sensations spawned
  by the need for those impressions;
  he turns away from all that is
  pleasant, painful or numb.

  And by turning away, holy ones,
  the disciple gives up all passions,
  and when he leaves the fires of passion he is free:
  and being free he knows that he is free:
  he knows his birth is finally exhausted,
  his holy life lived, his duty done,
  and finally, holy ones,
  he is no more for this world.


8/21:
  
  Argument

  from Walled Gardens

  But what about this intellectual exercise of mine,
  stirring up the dust and shifting with the wind?
  If I can’t find my way to God unless God shows
  the way, there can be no mindless praise,
  but what about this praiseless mind of mine?
 
  And what about intelligence? The premise of creation,
  the covet of my soul is the core of my design,
  yet it’s nothing but a word, only one of many spoken,
  and it’s keeping me in place. I’m sworn to intelligence,
  another soldier standing at the gate.
  If love is perfected by love reciprocated,
  why must my intelligence be tethered to the ground?
  My mind, my very soul, is confounded and bewildered,
  beholden to the mind over mine.


08/22:
  
  Polishing the Mirror

  from Walled Gardens

  In time
      we are no longer
  testing the arguments
  that our experience
  will somehow
      make us stronger
  as if each pang of hunger
  itself were sustenance,
  as if the circumstance
  of age could
      make us younger.
 
  No more this
      vain pretending
  our skin gets tougher when
  we feel reality
      burn like the sun.
  We are born to suffer and
  bear our mortality;
  there will be
      no happy ending
  before this
      day is done.

 But this too
      is from the sun:
  a secondary fire cast
  from rippling waters,
  a flashing picture
  of the waters’ movement
      brushed upon the wall,
  and you start to see that
  everything is a mirror
  of a higher power
      of aboriginal light;

  But this too
      is from the sun:
  the bent reflection
  of passing souls
  on a dagger’s face
  whose verging angle
  and sharpened edge
      turn angels into devils,
  and you let your dagger
  talk to you, but it
  never tells you
  what is true
      or what is false.

 In time
      all secondary
  images turn to gray,
  stealing the light of day
  and leaving
      ordinary
  impressions on the mirror
  of our mortality,
  yet we may never see
  a time when
      truth shines clearer.
 
  No more this
      disregarding
  what keeps our darkened hearts
  strong: each determined beat
      comes from the sun,
  and every spark imparts
  the sun’s eternity
  of truth that
      keeps on burning
  after the
      day is done.

  And this too
      is from the sun.


08/23:
  
  Turning To The Sun

  from Walled Gardens

  My heart is but a mirror in the fog
  of my own hypocrisy; my very soul
  is stained by the rust of doubt and unbelief,
  and the fog won’t lift and the rust won’t go away.
 
  God knows I’ve tried to make this mirror shine
  but all I have is spit and vinegar,
  a sprayer of hate and a rag of hostility,
  and the fog won’t lift and the rust won’t go away.

  “Faith,” I’m told, “will make your mirror shine:
  faith and the unstained virtue of your creed.”
  And so I turn my mirror to the sun
  and through the darkness I begin to pray:
  “Create in me a clean heart, O God,
  renew my spirit, help my unbelief

  ...that the fog would lift and the rust would go away.”


08/24:
  
  The Sun, Continued

  from Walled Gardens

  But if I hold my mirror to the sun,
  I can’t pretend the two of these are one
  and same: although the image of the sun
  is in the mirror, it is not the sun
  itself; likewise the mirror itself is one
  thing and the image is another. One
  may never know a thing about the sun
  and still reflect its light, just as the sun
  may shine its rays of light on everyone
  but never be diminished. I am one
  who looks through cloudy skies, and I am one
  whose eyes are sometimes clouded, so the sun
  and what I would perceive are not the same;
  whatever else, the sun is not to blame.


08/25:
  
  Moleskin 4.6: My Life As A Kid


Don’s sister, his only sibling, lived with her husband halfway between our old townhome and our old apartment. Their daughter, an only child, was the apple of her uncle’s eye. The balance of his attention was sure to change in the years ahead, but I wasn’t sensing it that summer. All I saw was an old habit-worn bachelor stubbornly set in his ways, and whatever care he had for kids and family was obscured by caricature. He kept stacks of Playboys in a basement file cabinet. He had regular poker nights with the guys. He brandished a heavy sassage accent and gave my mother a monosyllabic nickname. He showed a humorous type-A charm to everyone in the rooms he entered —everyone, that is, except for kids. As if to prove the point, he kept a W. C. Fields poster on one of the walls of his house long after stepsons intruded, telling us in the clearest terms: “I never met a kid I liked.” Our new cousin, it seems, had been an exception, but we were given the rule.

Friday, August 12, 2016

Dreaming Of Unending

Every Thought...


An over-advertised drug once led me to change the name of my Eastern Bluebird poem from Sialis, a Latin word for the bird, to Somewhere, suggesting uncertainty.  I return now to the truer mood.


08/12:
  TWL, Lines 296-306: Epigraphs And Epitaphs
  296     ‘My feet are at Moorgate and my heart   
  297     Under my feet.  After the event
  298     He wept.  He promised “a new start.”
  299     I made no comment.  What should I resent?’
  300     'On Margate Sands.
  301     I can connect
  302     Nothing with nothing.
  303     The broken fingernails of dirty hands.
  304     My people humble people who expect
  305     Nothing.'
  306        la la
296. THE MOORGATE NYMPH: Moorgate is an Underground stop in London’s financial district. This is the second of three Thames-daughters nymphs speaking, suggesting either three separate events or three perspectives of the same event.  See note 18 for the general events that set the mood of this poem (the war, the loss of a friend, a troubled marriage), and see note 263 for the possibility of events being out of order.  More immediately, and perhaps allegorically, consider the carnality of the event that “undid” the first of the Thames-daughters (line 294), with her knees supine (line 295), and compare this to the second position of one with “heart under my feet,” i.e., on her back.  See also the event perceived in the violet hour (line 220), an enactment both foresuffered by Tiresias (lines 243-244) and foresworn by the lovely woman’s half-formed thought: “Well now that's done: and  I'm glad it's over” (line 252).  In the present telling, note that however much thoughts are formed they are left unspoken; likewise, even the nymph’s emotion is reserved, with resentment only half-formed, this as her counterpart weeps and speaks.

298. HE WEPT, HE PROMISED: “He wept” repeats the convalescent’s lament (see line 182: “By the waters of Leman I sat down and wept...”) but also recalls the two word verse after the event of Lazarus’s death: “Jesus wept.”  See John 11:35.  Jesus had seen Lazarus’s sister Mary weeping and those with her weeping, and this had troubled him (John 11:33).  Note that the “he” of line 298 is not necessarily the perpetrator but could be, like Tiresias or Jesus, an observer of the event, or, as in line 360, the one “who walks always beside.”

EPIGRAPHS: By recalling the story of Lazarus, “he wept” returns us to this poem’s opening allusion from the Order of the Burial of the Dead (see note 0.5), and it also conjures the earlier allusion of the Sibyl wishing to die in the poem’s epigraph (note 0.3).  This might be considered the poem’s “old start,” and it is comparable to what Eliot had considered as an alternative epigraph, from Conrad, Heart of Darkness 3:
  
  “The horror! The horror!”
  
But whether one weeps over death, curses life or is horrified over humanity, there is now the hope of a “new start.”  Consider the epigraph that starts the Order of the Burial of the Dead, a passage at the heart of the Lazarus event from John 11:26 (note 0.5):
 
  “...whosoever liveth and believeth in me, shall never die.” 
  
And in response to both the weeping and the horror, see Heart of Darkness 3 for Marlow’s comment on Kurtz’s last words:
  
  “Better his cry—much better. It was an affirmation, a moral victory paid for by innumerable defeats ...But it was a victory!”  Compare Herman Hesse, A Glimpse of Chaos: The Brothers Karamazov, or The Downfall of Europe (1920; tr. Sydney Schiff):
  “Those who cling definitely to the past, those who venerate time-honoured cultural forms, the Knights of a treasured morality, must seek to delay this Downfall and will mourn it inconsolably when it passes. For them the Downfall is the End; for the others, it is the Beginning.”
  
Eliot met Hesse in Switzerland in 1922 and published this translation of Hesse’s essay in the first issue of his magazine The Criterion (October 1922), the same issue in which he offered his debut of The Waste Land.

EPITAPHS: See note 306 for more of this turnaround from beginning to end and end to beginning.
300. RECUPERATION: Margate is the southern England coastal town along a seaside cliff where Eliot, suffering from mental exhaustion, began a course of recuperation in the fall of 1921. He followed this with more formal treatment in Switzerland (see note 182), where he met Herman Hesse (see note 298).

303. BROKENNESS: See note 123 for recurrent images of nothingness, emptiness and brokenness.  In this case, broken nails and dirty hands suggest a continuation of the carnality of the nymphs’ event-telling (see note 297).  For more broken and dirty nails, see the nails of the corpse-digging dog at line 75.

THE MARGATE NYMPH, third of the three Thames-daughters, has not yet reached the resolution of a new start (see note 298).  None of the nymphs have made this connection, and with the Margate nymph’s lines their disconnection and lack of expectation is made even more apparent (see lines 299, 301-302 and 304-305), but their songs, sung at the end of this fire section of songs, are all part of the purgation.
 
306. FINAL NOTES: The three Thames-daughters’ songs end with a brief “la la” epitaph, a feeble echo of their opening choruses  at lines 277-79 and 290-291, uttered with a tone of defeat.  The curtain appears to be drawn, even as it is done by the “beneficent spider” (line 408, and see Webster, note 408), who would “make a thin curtain for your epitaphs.”   Yet quietly tucked into their songs was that promise of a new start (line 298).
  
ELIOT’S EPITAPH: Eliot’s hope for a new beginning and his appreciation for Hesse’s end to beginning turnaround (see note 298) would be developed further in his Four Quartets collection (see notes 0.5 and 64).  First, from East Coker (1940):
  
  “In my beginning is my end...
  
  ...Trying to learn to use words, and every attempt
  Is a wholly new start, and a different kind of failure...
  
  ...In my end is my beginning.”

Eliot would take the East Coker bookends,“In my beginning is my end... In my end is my beginning,” as his own epitaph.  
  
See also Little Gidding (1942), the final part of Eliot‘s Four Quartets:
  
  “Every phrase and every sentence is an end and a beginning,
  Every poem an epitaph.”
  
Thus, while the conclusion is not yet drawn, even in the nymphs’ songs as they reserve comment and fail to connect or expect, there is hope.
  
Finally, or not so finally, compare Eliot’s “He wept. He promised...” (Line 298) and  Herman Hesse’s “For them the Downfall is the End; for the others, it is the Beginning” (note 298) to the epigraph Dostoevsky chose for his Brother’s Karamazov (note 248), from John 12:24 (note 0.5):  “Verily, verily, I say unto you, except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.”


08/13:
  
  The End Of Reason
  
  from Walled Gardens

  How can one describe God?
  What wins the argument?
    
  I tried reasoning my way to God: it did not work;
  How can one know a way that cannot be known?
  Reason took me no further than the door,
  But in the end God’s presence let me in.
    
  I tried willing the door to open: it would not move.
  How can one see a face before it’s shown?
  My willfulness had gotten me this far,
  But in the end God’s presence let me in.
    
  If reason is incompetent to know its own nature
  And will is incapable of knowing itself,
  If I don’t seem to know the first thing about knowledge,
  Why would I think I could ever know God?
    
  I tried willing myself to God, but I lost my will;
  I tried reasoning my way to God, but in the end
  it was God’s love and kindness that opened the door;
  it was God’s grace and presence that let me in.
  
  
08/14:
  
  Reason, Persisting

  from Walled Gardens
  
  And the son arose and started walking
  back towards his father’s place...
  
  Reason, the traveler, never gets to God:
  the traveler’s heart and soul are dust upon the road;
  reason’s eyes are dry, unwashed by the love of God,
  and blind, unwise to the holiness of God.
    
  Reason, the innocent child, stirs up imagination
  out of darkness; the child is moved to discuss eternity
  with thoughtfulness and sensuality
  until God shows up and sweeps it all away.
  
  Reason, the ambitious bird, takes to the air,
  a sparrow claiming the ranks of Gabriel,
  but Reason too, like every Gabriel before the Lord,
  must one day bow its head and fold its wing.
    
  How can one describe God
  if Reason denies that God’s the One,
  the step at the start of the journey,
  and the image before the dream?
  
  How can one discuss God
  if God is just an argument
  and heaven is some distant place
  beyond the rank and file?  O Lone Traveler, stumbling on your wicked soul,
  O Raw Youth, caught up in your shallow sense,
  O Poor Sparrow, making your way to majesty:
  submit yourself to the One without a place.


08/15:

  Positure
  
  Once, looking back,   my tracks   left in the    snow
  Seemed pigeon-toed and    rambling   hereandthere
  And   barely   showing where I meant   to go
  And   never really   getting   anywhere,

  So I resolved to walk a straighter line
  With better posture and a clearer goal,
     And in my mind the tracks I left behind
  Were perfect pictures of a pristine soul,

  Until,   unsatisfied,   I turned around
  To see   my legacy and   take account,
  Which  caused my steps to   weave   from
  edge to edge;
  My back   re-bent,   and   I began   to sway;
  And on my cue, a pigeon on a ledge
     Stretched out its sturdy wings
     and flew  away.


08/16:

  Following The Path 
  
  from Walled Gardens
  
  A Restatement from David Pendlebury’s Garden
  
  The non-existent have come to serve
  at the door of true existence,
  nor is it just today that this is so
  but since time began
  dervishes have come
  bereft of wealth and power,
  swarming like ants at the door of love.
  
  ...No one knows how far it is
  from nothingness to God,
  but the self will wander right and left
  day and night
  for years and years
  turning around itself like an ox in the mill;
  break free from yourself,
  free yourself from yourself
  and in little time the wandering will cease
  and the door will open to you.


08/17:
  
  Sialia Sialis
  
  I

  The sun is somewhere in a cloudy sky
  And I can’t tell the hour, nor east from west,
  But though the dusk my spirit would deny
  
  My body’s telling me it’s time to rest,
  And what has carried me these miles beyond
  My starting point, that dawn so far away
  
  The fundamental memories are gone,
  Would somewhere in the middle of the day
  Turn to its history of winding roads
  
  And heaving hills and shifting winds and rain.
  But if what breathes can bear the pains and loads
  What lives will take each step as gift and gain
  
  And claim the highways leveled and unbending,
  And dream the better day of its unending.


  II

  Somewhere, past the fog, up in the trees,
  A bluebird sings its timeless song to me
  And to the world of possibilities
  
  Of heaven unsophisticatedly
  Descending on a sunless day, a song
  So sweet and sad and simple that the air 
  
  At once intoxicates and makes me strong,
  Uplifts me and abandons me.  Somewhere,
  I must believe, my destiny awaits,
  
  And at the final turn, this history 
  Will end and leave its luggage at the gates:
  This road, this day, this bird that sings to me,
  
  And all these weary words will cease to be
  And I will fly into eternity.
  
  
08/18:
  
  Moleskin 4.5: Transplanted
  
Our second suburban home had been four blocks away from the drainage ditch, and in the summer of twelve we moved even further away, to a place that seemed to be removed from rivers altogether. As before, I don’t remember much about the U-Hauling, maybe because it was mostly Dodge Darting, but oddly I can’t recall anything about the wedding either. We were just suddenly transplanted one suburb south, into a single family home with not much more yard than the townhouse had and with a new person in Dad’s place, someone who also wanted to be called “Dad.” My younger brothers obliged, but I insisted on calling him “Don.” Don was an engineer, and the house was his; he had shared the space with his parents, who were also suddenly transplanted that summer: out with the old, in with the new. Except that Don was old, too, forty four years old, never before married, never had kids. Didn’t have a clue. He was a loving uncle to his sister’s daughter, but that was hardly the same.

Sunday, August 7, 2016

pernicious villanelle


I wonder when the shoe is going to drop—
metaphors and footwear stores upending
a fear that later life has got to stop

will never heed a friendly traffic cop,
even out of sight, in wood trails’ wending.
I wonder when the shoe is going to drop.

And what propitiates this agitprop?
Who’s behind this nothing-so-offending
that fear for later life has got to stop?

I’m all for crows that sabotage the crop,
farmers, too, for all their scare-pretending;
I wonder when the shoe is going to drop

and harvests as we hope them gigaflop,
Dobermans elope instead of fending
fears for later life, pens that have to stop.

Answers almost never come from Aesop
(all respect for Attic truth transcending).
Why wonder when the shoe is going to drop?
This fear for later life has got to stop.

Friday, August 5, 2016

Dog Days

Every Thought...

Week 32: Walking Song

I have etched this Walking Song into memory, perhaps more than any other of my poems, at first while out simply walking the dog, and eventually while driving, working, waiting in line...


08/05:

  TWL, Lines 266-295: Songs Beyond The Isle Of Dogs

  266     The river sweats
  267     Oil and tar
  268     The barges drift
  269     With the turning tide
  270     Red sails
  271     Wide
  272     To leeward, swing on the heavy spar.
  273     The barges wash
  274     Drifting logs
  275     Down Greenwich reach
  276     Past the Isle of Dogs.
  277             Weialala leia
  278             Wallala leialala

  279     Elizabeth and Leicester
  280     Beating oars
  281     The stern was formed
  282     A gilded shell
  283     Red and gold
  284     The brisk swell
  285     Rippled both shores
  286     Southwest wind
  287     Carried down stream
  288     The peal of bells
  289     White towers
  290             Weialala leia
  291             Wallala leialala

  292     ‘Trams and dusty trees.
  293     Highbury bore me.  Richmond and Kew
  294     Undid me. By Richmond I raised my knees
  295     Supine on the floor of a narrow canoe.’

266. THE RIVER THAMES is central to this section of the poem, but see also lines 173-184 and note 209.  For London Bridge, see lines 62 and 427.  For other river allusions, see lines 4 (the Lethe), 25 (Isaiah’s river), 41 (the Congo), 77 (the Cydnus), 172 (Ophelia’s river), 266 (the Rhine), 293 (the Arno) and 396 (the Ganges) and note 430 (the Acheron).

THE THAMES-DAUGHTERS’ SONG: Eliot: “The Song of the (three) Thames-daughters begins here. From line 292 to 306 inclusive they speak in turn.  V. Götterdammerung, III. I: the Rhine-daughters.”

See Richard Wagner, Götterdammerung (note 8). The Thames-daughters’ song is directly derived from that of Wagner’s Rhine-daughters. The chorus lines "Weialala leia, Wallala leialala" (lines 277-278) and the more terse “la la”(line 306) are Wagner’s own, and Eliot also uses gold forging (lines 282-284) and assimilates Wagner’s clipped pace and spritely tone (lines 266-289) to contrast the song’s grimmer content.  In the opera, the nymphs take turns singing one line at a time, with some of the same curse and restoration motifs of the Grail legend (note 0.2).  See Götterdammerung 3.1.81-92:

  “From the Rhine's pure gold
was the ring once wrought.
He who craftily shaped it
and lost it in shame
laid a curse thereon
for time to come to doometh
its lord surely to death
...if thou the ring wilt not yield
to rest for aye in the waters
this stream alone stayeth the curse!”

NYMPHS, or singing spirits, hearken back to the airy spirits of Ariels’ song in the Tempest (see note 26).  Eliot's Thames-daughters also follow the nymphs of Edmund Spenser, Prothalamion (see note 176):

“Sweet Thames, run softly, till I end my song...
There, in a meadow, by the river's side,
A flock of nymphs I chanced to espy,
All lovely daughters of the flood thereby....”

See also lines 176, 183 and 184.  For the meaning of what Eliot’s nymphs sing, see note 293.

272. BARGES DRIFTING: See Conrad, Heart of Darkness 1:

“The sea-reach of the Thames stretched before us like the beginning of an interminable waterway. In the offing the sea and the sky were welded together without a joint, and in the luminous space the tanned sails of the barges drifting up with the tide seemed to stand still in red clusters of canvas sharply peaked, with gleams of varnished sprits.”

276. THE ISLE OF DOGS, once an island, is now a peninsula at one of the larger meanders in the Thames River, just north and west of Greenwich Reach, a straight section of the Thames. The royal dogs of King Henry VIII, and later Queen Elizabeth I, were said to be kenneled here, although there is no record of the name being used prior to 1588, when it first appeared on a map. It is, in any case, just across the river from the erstwhile grounds of the Palace of Placentia, the royal residence where Elizabeth was born in 1533 and where her Privy Council later met.  In 1597, Ben Jonson and Thomas Nashe wrote a satirical play called The Isle of Dogs, which allegedly offended the queen and crossed lines of propriety to the point that Jonson and two of his fellow actors were arrested and all copies of the play were destroyed. The matter was referred to the Privy Council, which found the actors guilty of “leude and mutynous behavior” and recommended a three month prison term and a ban on all public plays for the rest  of the summer. Queen Elizabeth was generally a supportive patron of London’s theater scene, but she carried out the Council’s recommendations, effectively imposing a ban usually reserved for the lenten season.

For commentary within a year of this event, see Francis Meres, Palladis Tamia (1598):

"As Actæon was worried of his owne hounds: so is Tom Nash of his Isle of Dogs.  Dogges were the death of Euripedes; but bee not disconsolate, gallant young Iuuenall, Linus, the sonne of Apollo died the same death. Yet God forbid that so braue a witte should so basely perish! Thine are but paper doggies, neither is thy banishment like Ouids, eternally to conuerse with the barbarous Getæ. Therefore comfort thyselfe sweete Tom, with Cicero's glorious return to Rome, and with the counsel Æneas gives to his seabeaten soldiers.”

Palladis Tamia, subtitled Wit’s Treasury, was used in the 1600's as a schoolbook covering English literature from Chaucer to Shakespeare.  Pallas, or Athena, was the goddess of wisdom, or wit (see Pallas Bathing, note 298), and Tamia means household attendant or, in this case, treasurer.  The cited Pallas Tarnia passage refers to Actaeon’s death by his own dogs (see note 197), Euripides’s death by dogs (see note 198) and the death of Apollo’s son Linus by sheepdogs (see Pausanius, Description of Greece (ca. 180 ACE)).  It also refers to the exiles of Juvenal, a second century Roman satirist; of Ovid, who was banished to Getae for “a poem and a mistake” (See Ovid, Tristia, ca. 8 ACE); and of Cicero, who returned to a cheering senate after a yearlong political exile in 58 BCE.  Finally it refers to Aeneas’s morale-boosting speech to his troops at Virgil, Aeneid (note 0.1) 1:198-207.

DOGS appear only one other time in The Waste Land, when the poet bids his friend to keep the dog from digging up a corpse (line 74), but there are other seemingly related references within the poem’s principal allusions: besides the attacks by dogs of Actaeon and Euripides, noted above, barking watchdogs appear  in Ariel’s song (see Shakespeare, The Tempest, at note 26), and Lilith is sent to the desert where the wild dogs dwell (see Jesus ben Sira, Alphabeta, at note 145).  See also Penteus’s gruesome demise by the Maenads in Euripides, The Bacchae (note 248).     Finally, see Sophocles, Antigone 5: 79-83 (note 248), in which Tiresias speaks of:

“...mangled warriors who have found a grave
I' the maw of wolf or hound.”

279. ELIZABETH AND LEICESTER refers to Queen Elizabeth I, the so-called Virgin Queen, and her alleged long time lover, Lord Robert Dudley, the Earl of Leicester.

Eliot: “V. Froude, Elizabeth, vol. I, ch. iv, letter of De Quadra to Philip of Spain...” See James Anthony Froude, The Reign of Elizabeth (1911) 1.4:

“In the afternoon we were in a barge, watching the games on the river. [The queen] was alone with Lord Robert and myself on the poop, when they began to talk nonsense, and went so far that Lord Robert at last said, as I was on the spot there was no reason why they should not be married if the queen pleased.”

In this 1561 letter to King Philip, Spanish Ambassador Alvaro de la Quadra supported talk that Elizabeth I, known as the Virgin Queen, and Lord Robert Dudley were lovers who would rendezvous at the Queen’s home in Greenwich, past the Isle of Dogs. A year earlier, Lord Robert’s first wife, Amy Robsart, had  died from a fall down a flight of stairs.  The coroner officially ruled her death an accident, but rumors persisted that he had arranged for her death in order to be free to marry the Queen.  In  1564, four years after the accident, the Queen appointed him Earl of Leicester, but she never did marry Lord Robert or anyone else, and Lord Robert did not remarry for eighteen years.

Elizabeth ruled by the precepts of “semper eadem” (“always the same”) and "video et taceo" ("I see, and say nothing").  Compare    these to the comfortable forgetfulness of winter before the season’s change (line 6), and the dismissive inability to see of Madame Sosostris (line 54).  For more on perceptiveness and the lack thereof, see notes 219 and 308.

280. BEATING OARS are mentioned twice in the poem, here and at line 420, but there are also several indirect references, first through the adapted description of Cleopatra’s chambers (see note 77) and then in the allusion to Philomela’s abduction (see note 99).

283. RED AND GOLD are the colors of the Spanish flag. In 1588, the Earl of Leicester ostensibly defended the Thames to keep the Spanish Armada from advancing towards London.

291. THE PEAL OF BELLS from white towers suggest the festive trappings of a wedding, forever out of reach for Elizabeth and Leicester; bells would ring in the Tower of London and St. Paul’s  Cathedral, which were once white before taking on the dinge of time, pollution and war.  See also line 68 for St. Mary Woolnoth’s  bells with a “dead sound at the final stroke of nine” and lines 383-384: “...towers tolling reminiscent bells.”  See also Whitman, Memories 6:

“With the tolling tolling bells’ perpetual clang.”

Compare the bells ringing in Ariel’s song (note 26), at Shakespeare, The Tempest 1.2.405.

295. THE PIA’S LAMENT: To make sense of what was carried downstream (see line 287), we are brought upstream to suburbs southwest of the City, where the dinge on the white towers is now reflected by “trams and dusty trees.”  First, Highbury is a working class London suburb, north of the river, presented here as an earlier point of origin; nothing more is said about Highbury, although Eliot had considered several digressive lines to further describe a somewhat pastoral, though still dusty, suburban scene.  The action, however, is at Kew and Richmond, communities  along the River Thames in southwest London, with the Royal Botanic Gardens, commonly called Kew Gardens, situated between them.
 
Eliot’s use of this multi-suburban allusion may have been initially inspired by Ezra Pound; see Pound, Ode to Hugh Selwyn Mauberley (1920), an autobiographical London satire with eighteen short poems, the seventh called “Siena mi fè, disfecemi Maremma.” As recognized by Eliot, this is a quote from “la Pia” in Dante’s Purgatorio, telling her life and death story in a few brief lines.  Eliot:

“Cf. Purgatorio, V. 133:
'Ricorditi di me, che son la Pia;
Siena mi fe', disfecemi Maremma.'”

See Dante, Purgatorio 5:133-134:

“Do Thou remember me who am the Pia;
Siena made me, unmade me Maremma”

Pia de Tolemei, born to a noble family in Siena, was the gentle wife of a thirteenth century Tuscan captain, the lord of Castel di Pietra in Maremma.  She met her end when her husband, heart set on his next marriage, threw her from a castle window.  Compare this to the alleged murder of Amy Robsart (see note 279).

The Pia’s displacement is similar to that of the Russian/German/ Lithuanian of line 12, or Aeneas from Troy to Carthage, or Queen Dido from Tyre to Carthage (see notes 12 and 92); her making and unmaking also reflects the doing and undoing of Queen Dido by Cupid and Aeneas, as described in Shakespeare, Antony and Cleopatra 2.2.208 (see note 80):

“...and what they undid did.”

The reflection is backwards, however: Queen Dido fell for Aeneas when Cupid intervened, but they never married and her love  drove her to suicide when Aeneas left, while the Pia had been married until her husband murdered her.  The Pia’s lament continues at Purgatorio 5:135-136:

“‘He knoweth it, who had encircled first,
Espousing me, my finger with his gem.’”

THE RICHMOND NYMPH:  This is the first of three parts to the Thames-daughters' song (see note 266). Three nymphic singers each relate a loss of innocence from a different perspective.  See notes 297, 298 and 303.  But more than just innocence is lost: in this first song, similar to the next two, there is a vulgar sexual act that marks an end of virginity, or at least of any sense of romance: in this first song the victim’s knees are raised, she is flat on her back on the bottom of a boat and she is undone.  At the same time, although the Pia ostensibly did nothing wrong, there is a lingering sense of shame and guilt in Eliot’s retelling.  Dante encountered the Pia in the second spur of ante-purgatorio, where those who died a violent death had repented of their sins just before dying. Without such timely repentance the victim might have been found elsewhere in Dante’s journey.


08/06:
  
   Leopold

  King Leopold of Vold once ruled
  that portion of our Glyndon jungle
  where the grass was not quite wild
     and the river didn’t reach.

  We kept a chain around his golden
  neck for his own good, we said,
  but when he grumbled now and then
     we’d let him off the leash.

  I want what Leo wanted then,
  to have the lion’s share of life,
  to run along the jungle’s edge,
     to chase what I desire.

  But in a dog’s life, just a taste
  of freedom turns into an urge
  to hit the roads and try to bite
     the tires off of cars.


08/07:
  
   Walter

  Sir Walter Dog was not the knight
  we wanted him to be, and yet
  he struck a pose on our front steps,
     perusing distant fields.

  Nor was he quite the Scottish writer
  we would have him answer to,
  although I’d bet he had his own
     adventures to reveal.

  He was a dog, we’ll give him that,
  but nothing of the pedigree
  some said he was —more terrier,
     less cocka, mostly poo.

  But you’re one for the ages, Walter,
  living on in memories
  for more than thirty years, and we’re
     still calling out to you.


08/08:

   Duncan And The Closet Monster

   or Never Fear, by Dog

   Most of the time, there is absolutely nothing to worry about. The thing is usually not much more than an inanimate object. Right now, for instance, it seems to be sleeping in a corner of the hall closet, minding its own business, not making a sound. Of course, it is evening now, and the thing has never been known to stir at night, but even in the daytime, as long as the closet door is closed and it keeps to the shadows, it maintains a harmless peace that even a dutiful watchdog might begin to accept.

   But don’t be alarmed, my two-legged friends, for you have not only a dutiful dog but a wise one, who knows a deceptive calm when he sees one. I don’t mean to scare you, but there is a beast in our house, a savage monster behind that closet door, with a spine-chilling howl and armor-plated skin and hidden teeth. But rest assured, good people, you shall not be bothered. I am your guard dog, and I am keen to the monster’s ways. If that closet door cracks open even the slightest bit, I’ll perk up my eyes and ears. If the monster wakes, I promise to let you know. And if it dares to emerge from its shadows, never fear, people, I will be on my feet even before the demon lets out its first hair-raising screech. I will not allow it to take over the house. I will scare it back into the closet, so that all of you may stay safe and sound this evening. That is my job, after all, and I intend, as always, to do it right.  Perhaps some of you aren’t even aware of the monster’s existence. I’m not surprised. The animal rarely comes out when everyone is home, largely due, I’m sure, to my persistent guarding. Right now, for instance, I do not allow it to intrude on you while you’re all eating your dinner, or later when you look at your television, or after that when you’ve fallen asleep. I am doubly alert with the whole family around, and in times like these the monster stays put, probably because it knows better.

   Likewise, the beast seems to have enough sense to keep to the shadows when no one is around —no one, that is, but me. It knows, I believe, that without the restraint that looking out for your safety puts on me, I would tear out its very heart. I swear, by dog, I would have no tolerance. In fact, more than once on those solitary days, I’ve thought of busting the door down and attacking the monster in cold blood, while it sleeps. Even now that is an appealing thought.

   But don’t be concerned, people, I am hardly a beast myself. I will control my temper, for your sake, even if just one of you is in the house.

   It is precisely those times, however, that the creature always seems to wait for. It’s as if it knows that I’m not the brutal savage then that I would be in an empty house, nor the alert guard, as I’m trying to be right now, with the house full. I guess it thinks that with just one or two people home, I’m not as much on my toes. And so it has been, I confess. In the winter afternoons, for instance, like the one we had today, the sun looks so inviting as it shines on the living room carpet. And from time to time, I’m sorry to say, I lapse from my basic duties, in favor of that carpet, giving the enemy more opportunity than it deserves.

   Usually only one of you is around. Maybe you’re in the kitchen, playing with dishes, or walking around the house rubbing  windows. I glance at the hall closet and see it closed. I peek in the kitchen and see you safe, and —just for a while, mind you —I stretch out and catch my breath, and I relax my guard. Oh, but forgive me, gentle people, for being less than diligent. Forgive me for thinking too much of myself. For it is in just this setting, me stretched out on the floor and you roaming unprotected through the house, that the creature suddenly roars. I jump up and run for the closet, but it is too late. You are no longer in the kitchen, playing with dishes, but in the hallway, gripping tightly at the monster’s neck. Oh, what a sorry dog I am! If only I had been lying against that door to keep, or if only I had not been lying down at all, then you would never have been involved.

   But the sly beast had waited for this opportunity. And what can I do now? As the battle gets under way, you have its neck, and I can only be ready on the side in case you lose your grip. Oh, how I wish that it could be me who has the throat-hold. By dog, I would rip that neck in two.

   As it is, though, I can’t do much more than cheer you on. I try to bark louder than the beast, but the beast is deafening, and has incredible endurance. I try to keep the beast at bay, but it is a very clever creature and cunningly expands the battlefield, pulling you slowly from one room to the next. I try to bite the beast, but it is a thick-skinned animal, impervious to my attacks. Only its neck appears to be vulnerable, and that is in your clutches. As you whip it here and there, I can only encourage you to tighten your hold. Of course I suggest, now and then, that maybe you ought to turn its pitiful neck over to me.

   But I can see that you’re afraid. You start speaking to me, perhaps asking me how and when you should let go of its neck. But because of the monster’s terrible screaming, I can’t make out exactly what you’re saying, and you don’t seem to hear my reply.  The battle goes on, throughout the entire house. We move into the living room, and the animal spends an extra amount of time right over the area of carpet where I had been sprawled out on moments before. This really steams me, and I start barking even louder. You seem to apply more pressure on your strangle-hold, and yet the monster continues to roar. It could be, I consider, that the neck is thicker than I thought. But I keep barking back at the beast, hoping always that I might at least frighten it back into its shadows.

   We wrestle through every room of the house, and then suddenly, even as my barks are starting to crack, the roaring stops. The animal’s endurance has proven to be less than mine, and I keep on barking, triumphantly, as you drag the silent body back to the closet and firmly close the door.

   It is evening, and you are all in the house again. I always notice on nights like this that one of you —the recent warrior, I mean —never wants to say anything about the incident. I understand. You’re still a little shaky, or maybe you don’t want to concern the others. Maybe you know as well as I do that the beast isn’t dead yet. Well, rest assured. The next time I get a chance, I swear, I’m going to bust in and kill that thing for good. In the mean time, never fear, eat your dinner in peace, and enjoy complete safety. Your guard dog is on patrol. My ears are tuned to the closet door, and I will sense the slightest movement in the hallway. I will protect you from the evil monster of the shadows, and you fine people may continue your peaceful meal without any interruption.

   But say, I sure would appreciate it if you would put a plate of food aside for me.


08/09:
  
   Bruiser: By Way Of An Introduction

  This is my walking song.

  Everyone should have a walking song,
  to break the silence,
  to add to the routine,
  to keep life's conversation going.

  A walking song helps one appreciate
  the world along the pathway,
  and the companions of the day.

  It's a talk to go with the walk,
  a song to sing when no one else is there.

  Best of all, a walking song is a daily discipline,
  putting to practice the challenge of Paul
  from 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18:

  Rejoice always,
  pray without ceasing,
  give thanks in all circumstances...

  Which leads to verse 19: "Do not quench the spirit."


08/10:
  
   Yoshi: My Walking Song

  I

  Lately my life revolves around a dog
  Who knows whose leash it is and whose routine
  We follow, stretching thin the line between
  Our independent wills.

  I see the dog
  As one who needs a master, while the dog
  Sees one who needs a friend, and if I’ve been
  One caught up on commands the dog has seen
  Me listening now and then.

  So man and dog
  Since time began have tugged upon this leash
  And traveled down the trails of this routine
  Each morning looking forward to the walk.

  Man and dog,
  Unequally assigned, but side by side
  Man walks the dog, dog walks the man, and each
  One seems to keep the other satisfied.

  I am the man. This is my dog
  What would I hear if my dog could talk?
  What would I want to say
  if I were the dog?

  What would I think? What would I know?
  Where would I run to? How far would I go?
  And would I run away
  if I were the dog?

  Let me stretch this leash from here to heaven,
  Let me sometimes think I know the way
  But let me take the paths that I’ve been given
  And learn what I should say.

  I am the man. This is my dog.
  I try to listen whenever we walk.
  But what can there be to say
  when you’re a dog?


  II

  Sometimes I find myself spinning around
  And chasing after things that aren’t there,
  Entangling the one whose leash I share
  And losing sight of where we might be bound.

  I think it’s good to have someone around
  To take my side, to set the pace, to bear
  The distance and to gently lead me where
  I know I need to go,

  But I have found
  Myself spinning around things I don’t know.
  I’m leaping after birds up in the air
  And tracking common scents into the ground,

  But I have found
  The one whose leash I share at every turn
  Keeps telling me the things I ought to know
  But giving me the time I need to learn.

  God is the man. I am the dog.
  I’m not the man I once thought I was.
  He seems so far away.
  I am the dog.

  Prayer is the leash. This is my prayer,
  Drawing me close to the man up there.
  I don’t have words to say.
  I am the dog.

  But I’ll stretch this leash from here to heaven,
  And sometimes I’ll think I know the way,
  But I’ll take the paths that I’ve been given
  And learn what I should say.

  God is the man, but I am the one
  Who walks with him when the day is done
  And with each breaking dawn.
  I am the dog.


  III

  Lately my mind has turned the metaphor
  Of man and dog, the leash and the routine
  Upon its head. What can these verses mean
  If I’m still learning what the walking’s for?

  And can there even be a metaphor
  Sufficient for the poetry I’ve seen
  Along the way, when every step has been
  Part of a song I’ve never sung before?

  All the more,
  I will walk, and in my walking sing,
  And with my singing cherish the routine
  And through routine embrace each metaphor

  All the more,
  Of God and man, of learning how to pray,
  Of never understanding everything
  About this life but walking anyway.

  And I’ll stretch this leash from here to heaven,
  And sometimes I’ll think I know the way,
  But I’ll take the paths that I’ve been given.
  I’m learning how to pray.

  Prayer is the leash. This is my prayer,
  Keeping me close to the man up there,
  And he’s not so far away.
  I am the dog.


08/11:
  
   Moleskin 4.4: The Summer Of Twelve

  Put yourself in my shoes, just for a moment: it is the summer of ‘75, or for the sake of otherness, the summer of twelve. Your father and mother are working hard to raise you, and working together, but something isn’t right. They are living in separate places, looking in different directions; they are often consumed by their own challenges, facing their own futures apart from yours. So it is, with varying degrees of consumption and challenge, for every parent, but this does not occur to you in your youth, and it troubles you even more as parent one starts to talk about moving away to relaunch a career, and as parent two seems to be lonely, in need of a partner. And all of a sudden parent two finds that new partner to finally replace parent one, and in the same sudden, and the order doesn’t matter here, parent one moves two states away, happily accepting a call to a new beginning. And the world seems happy for both of them, but you’re left punching your Christmas present, wondering why.